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Assalamualaikum. To be honest, I seldom appreciate people around me including my family. I always took them for granted and even worse than that. But that was before. That was before I reached maturity. That was when I was in my teenage years, full of energy and rebelions. Going back to 2006, I lost my beloved grandfather. He died at the age of 67 due to atherosclerosis. He's gone during my SPM trial, and I did very bad in both trial and the real examination. I am supposed to be a good grand daughter, do good deeds on his behalf and pray a lot for him. Instead, I went to the opposite, which gave me so much regrets later. I don't want to repeat the same mistakes I did before. Looking at my family members, I know the fact that they won't be with me forever. It is just a matter of time that they will return back to The Almighty. So, I really want to spend the time left to fully appreciate them. Especially my mum and dad. Couldn't imagine my life without them. Hap...

Assalamualaikum. Been wanted to write something in here since ages but too occupied with work. I mean, my proposal. After a year+ staying at home doing nothing, here I am at USM. Oh, I told you guys already. Haha. But these two weeks are the time when I am really started and focused my study and blablabla. So far so good. USM is a great place with great people. Everybody looks smart and intelligent, making me doubt with my own self. Can I compete with these people? Can I survive this? Is this really the right choice I've made? I keep asking myself these questions because I know that I am not so good nor not so bad in studies. Plus, after a year of idling my brain seems freezing more than ever. Reading journals  over and over and over again, yet understanding nothing. Haha. Can someone shares tips on how to melt a freeze brain? Lol. Hm. In the meantime, I am waiting for Dr Aileen to give feedbacks on my proposal but she's nowhere to be seen. And Naje' is here wit...