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Eton sayang , How are you there ? I hope you are always fine . Me ? Kinda fine here . Actually , a bit awkward to write you something like this . I mean , we used to talk face to face on everything and I never thought that I will have to talk to you through this blog post . Haha . Well , nothing much . Or to be exact , too much to tell until I don't know which one should I share with you . So , it left with several things I want to share with you . Just like the old days . Earlier , I've gone through my picture collections and you were there , in almost pictures of me . At first second , I smiled but later I started to cry . Yea , I cried ! Because I just miss you so much . It is too too much until words can't describe it ! :( :( I know you were happy with him , with your family , and your new family . I have to accept that is your life now . And forever . But I just can't accept the fact that you are no longer with me . How I wish time didn't flies so fast , ...

Dua hari lepas , aku duduk sorang dekat bilik . Room mate kurang pasti ada dekat mana . Suddenly , teringat pada bonda . Dan tanpa sedar , aku menangis . Bersungguh sungguh . Sampai tersedu sedu . Mula-mula , macam tak pasti kenapa boleh menangis . Mungkin terlalu rindu sebab 2 bulan spend masa dengan dia , and suddenly kena balik kolej dah . Bila dah lama sikit , aku fikir . Bukan pasal rindu aku menangis tu tapi rasa bersalah . Yang amat sangat ! Aku bukan dari keluarga yang senang since cuma abah yang bekerja menyara keluarga . Tapi Alhamdulillah , kami tak pernah kebuluran walaupun tak mewah . Setiap hari cukup makan dari sarapan , lunch sampai lah dinner . Aku bukan nak riak tapi aku memang anak yang baik masa kecik dulu . Dengar cakap mama dengan abah , jarang sangat lawan cakap diorang . Tapi , syaitan tu sentiasa berusaha untuk menyesatkan hamba Allah . Aku kalah jugak dengan hasutan syaitan tu . Aku berubah , selalu lawan cakap mama dengan abah . Cuma cakap nenek je yang aku...