Me #16: Dream
Assalamualaikum.
I've been dreaming about the same guy for two days in row. By two days I mean during my night sleeps and also afternoon naps. Heck! Is there anything bad happened to that guy? I mean, we are no longer together nor we kept ourselves in touch. So, why on Earth I kept dreaming of him? You know what's worst? My heart could racing like I've just ended a full marathon and my hands and feet are cold as ice. That means something bad happened right? No?
To be honest, it is not a bad dream. Not at all. It is more like a major throwback to the old memories. Which I'd deleted (permanently) from my brain. Maybe I need to empty the dustbin to totally forgot about them. Lol. But, the dream gave me cold and bad feelings every time I open my eyes. I even shivering as hell.
God please spare me.
Since I've been feeling bad, I asked those people around me to make sure they are all right. Alhamdulillah, everyone is fine :') Maybe, just maybe that dream is a way for us to be saying our final goodbye. Like, really a goodbye. No more stalking. No more bad talking. No more remembering. No more hating. No more loving.
Maybe.
Anyhow, I am relieved that he is fine. By 'he' I mean the guy I've been texting to this lately. That little brat is really an expert of making people worried. For god sake. He loves going into MIA in the middle of conversations, which I hate the most. But since he's asking for an understanding, I'll just let it slid off. I'll take that as one of his natural traits (in the process of identifying his other traits). Zzz.
God please lend me peace in my heart.
I really need to be calm and avoid over thinking. No negative thoughts, please? Damn. I feel like shit. And hopeless. So, see you from the other side?
p.s; Membuak-buak perasaan nak mencarut. Fuhh *urut dada*
I've been dreaming about the same guy for two days in row. By two days I mean during my night sleeps and also afternoon naps. Heck! Is there anything bad happened to that guy? I mean, we are no longer together nor we kept ourselves in touch. So, why on Earth I kept dreaming of him? You know what's worst? My heart could racing like I've just ended a full marathon and my hands and feet are cold as ice. That means something bad happened right? No?
To be honest, it is not a bad dream. Not at all. It is more like a major throwback to the old memories. Which I'd deleted (permanently) from my brain. Maybe I need to empty the dustbin to totally forgot about them. Lol. But, the dream gave me cold and bad feelings every time I open my eyes. I even shivering as hell.
God please spare me.
Since I've been feeling bad, I asked those people around me to make sure they are all right. Alhamdulillah, everyone is fine :') Maybe, just maybe that dream is a way for us to be saying our final goodbye. Like, really a goodbye. No more stalking. No more bad talking. No more remembering. No more hating. No more loving.
Maybe.
Anyhow, I am relieved that he is fine. By 'he' I mean the guy I've been texting to this lately. That little brat is really an expert of making people worried. For god sake. He loves going into MIA in the middle of conversations, which I hate the most. But since he's asking for an understanding, I'll just let it slid off. I'll take that as one of his natural traits (in the process of identifying his other traits). Zzz.
God please lend me peace in my heart.
I really need to be calm and avoid over thinking. No negative thoughts, please? Damn. I feel like shit. And hopeless. So, see you from the other side?
p.s; Membuak-buak perasaan nak mencarut. Fuhh *urut dada*
