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Assalamualaikum. Menjalani kehidupan sebagai seorang pendosa nyata membuat hati tidak tenang. Tenangnya mungkin cuma ketika tidur, itu pun kadang kala diganggu mimpi ngeri yang menjadi refleks kepada dosa yang kita buat. Bila bangun dari tidur, otak masih terus berfikir tentang dosa-dosa hari semalam yang telah kita lakukan. At least, itu apa yang aku alami lah. Seorang mukmin yang baik akan menjaga hubungannya dengan Allah, dan juga hubungannya dengan manusia. Tapi itu lah, aku rasa aku gagal menjaga dua-dua hubungan tu. Selalu yang terjadi, bila nak jaga hubungan dengan Allah, akan ada hati manusia yang berkecil hati. Bila menjaga hati manusia, akan berlaku perkara yang dilarang Allah. Astaghfirullah :( Entah lah. Tahun lepas, aku dah berjanji dengan diri sendiri bahawa aku nak berubah dan mesti berubah. Sebab tu aku buat banyak keputusan-keputusan drastik yang mengecewakan banyak manusia, tak kurang juga yang menyokong. Pada fikiran aku, untuk menjadi lebih baik atau pun tidak i...

Assalamualaikum. Yes, I have deleted previous post because of two reasons: 1. Someone started to speculate things when reading it. Truthfully, I have no idea that the post will resembles someone which I know nothing about. I am sorry for that coincidence. 2. Envy is not a good feeling. Envy means I am being jealous of what someone's having, which also means that I am not being grateful for what I'm having. I definitely don't want to be an ungrateful servant. Alhamdulillah. Allah still gives me the chance to breath even to the moment I type this post. Indeed, being able to breath is one of His gifts. The previous Ramadhan had taught me something; always being thankful even for the troubles you experienced. Yes, people said behind every challenges lie a hikmah (goodness). Along that Holy month, I always thought about my past experiences. The good and the bad. Why Allah sent those trials to me, on those times and places. As my friend said; "Allah still loves you....

3rd & 4th May 2014. Jalan Kebun. The first of us six. Still can't believe that she's now someone's wife. She never knew him before since she had a boyfriend back in UKM but she sacrificed her love for him to marry a man of her mother's choice. May Allah bless your marriage, love. Am sure the things you'd sacrifice worth the happiness of your life time. I love you. Right before akad nikah. Officially husband and wife. *kesat air mata* Reception day. Yes, baju pengapit tak sama warna and I don't know why. Since kat luar panas, we're having fun in the bride's room. Thank you air conditioner. HAHA. We-fie. Lol. Six of us + one man. p.s: Happy 24th birthday to me :)

24th March 2014 Matang Mangrove Forest, charcoal factories and Zoo Taiping. One day trip for Environmental Ethics & Coastal Zone course. Our last trip together for these 4 years. Ranger on duty: Mr Nadzruddin. That girl in black cap, her name is Yu Jia Jia. She's from Beijing :) Boat used to transport the mangrove woods from the forest to factories. It can only transports those woods during high tide where this small river will be filled with water. She's being paid 25 cents for every wood that she debarked. Black attire can't hide my chubbiness. Lol. Yeah. Time to sleep. Zzz.

12 March 2014. Around UPM's academic buildings. While waiting for 2pm class, we got bored. And we got high. And we took pictures of ourselves despite of many people's watching and hot sunny day.

The cake. Orange and blue berry flavours :9 Three generations. Haikal (0703), Yun (1203), Nina & mom (1303), nenek (1003) and wak Yati (0203). 21. 48. 19. 21 and 50. 73 and still looking good :* March babies celebration at home. 10 March 2014. As usual, March babies are being celebrated because grandma's birthday is in March. One of the musts has event in our family :) Wiwie's 24th birthday at Starbucks Kota Kemuning. 14 March 2014. I rushed to Starbucks to meet these lovely ladies to celebrate my favourite girl's birthday. Enjoy your 24, baby! :)